LIVING LIFE THE WAY I WANT; StillMovingUnDerGunfirE

2012-01-25T15:29:00.000+08:00

30. One thing I'm excited for.

2011-11-28T10:10:00.000+08:00

30. One thing I'm excited for.

What would you do if you only had 24 hours to live?

2011-09-28T02:35:00.000+08:00

"What would you do if you only had 24 hours to live?"

What the hell would I do? I realised I don't have a fucking goal. Now all I do is rot at home.
I don't alway do my best; I make everyone worry. I'm losing passion for what I wanted to do initially.
I want to spend quality time with family, but I don't know how to. It used to be so easy to tell everything to them but now I'm keeping them all to myself and most of the time I don't even know what is making those tears fall. I'd immerse myself in work, but I get distracted so easily; I won't be as good as them.

I fear death; I don't want to leave my loved ones. I don't want to see them leave me either. But this is part of life. Then sometimes I wonder, why let me live and suffer?
I know I can choose not to feel this way; I can choose to be happy.
I don't know what's stopping me.

What the hell happened to all those thoughts I had earlier.

2011-09-21T14:32:00.000+08:00

29. Five weird things that I like.

2011-09-11T02:02:00.004+08:00

29. Five weird things that I like.

Escargot
Junk to most people
Weird people of tumblr

28. Somewhere I'd like to move to or visit.

2011-09-10T01:59:00.000+08:00

28. Somewhere I'd like to move to or visit.

Hokkaido, Japan
Europe
Taiwan
Hong Kong, again. Longer duration, this time.

2011-09-09T02:09:00.002+08:00

Samantha's Dewey Decimal Section:

134 [Unassigned]

Samantha = 91314081 = 913+140+81 = 1134

Class:
100 Philosophy & Psychology

Contains:
Books on metaphysics, logic, ethics and philosophy.

What it says about you:
You're a careful thinker, but your life can be complicated and hard for others to understand at times. You try to explain things and strive to express yourself.

Find your Dewey Decimal Section at Spacefem.com

27. A quote I try to live by.

2011-09-09T01:57:00.002+08:00

27. A quote I try to live by.

What is done, is done. Whatever happens, happens for a reason. Whatever you do won't change the past, so just suck it up and move on. Don't reget what you did; you'll regret more about what you didn't do. Just do whatever in your means to set things right again, because once you've hit rock bottom, the only way is up. Also, whatever you do is a choice, no one forced you; it's only the consequences that make it seem like the 'only choice'. And yeah, karma's a bitch.

I don't think this is a quote; it's more of what I live by. But I never seem to be able to think of it when I'm in a pinch.

2011-09-09T01:49:00.002+08:00

you are darkslateblue
#483D8B

Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy.

Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

2011-08-24T20:12:00.003+08:00

I wonder how long will we still keep in contact after this. 10 years? 20 years? No wait, I daren't think that far. 1 year, 2 years? Probably. I hate to think that we will all go our separate ways and lose all form of contact with one another.

26. Things I like and dislike about myself.

2011-08-19T01:45:00.002+08:00

26. Things I like and dislike about myself.

I don't like how possessive I am as a friend.
I don't like how much of an attention-seeker I am.
I don't like my bouts of mood swings.
I don't like how I can destroy a relationship single-handedly.
I don't like how I'm so dependent on others for my happiness/well-being.

25. Something that I'm currently worrying about.

2011-08-18T01:45:00.000+08:00

25. Something that I'm currently worrying about.

Mark overtaking me in MapleStory Adventures.

24. Five words/phrases that make me laugh.

2011-08-15T20:55:00.000+08:00

24. Five words/phrases that make me laugh.

ha
haha
hahaha
hahahaha
hahahahaha

23. Something that I miss.

2011-08-14T20:49:00.001+08:00

23. Something that I miss.

The past. The old you.

22. My academics.

2011-08-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

22. My academics.

The latest one not out yet.

21. How I hope my future will be like.

2011-08-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

21. How I hope my future will be like.

Happy.

2011-08-12T20:26:00.002+08:00

Oh thanks. I can feel all the care .

2011-07-30T03:40:00.002+08:00

quietedheart Samantha

Skype chat stopped. The usual group, well... We rarely have lunch as a class anymore. It's just me nic lx and mark. Occasionally hum.

17 minutes ago

quietedheart Samantha

I see 1M03 and then I see our class. It seems that we're not as close-knit as I thought we were, huh.

19 minutes ago

quietedheart Samantha

#nowplayinginmyhead hu huan wo - zheng yu jia and it's disrupting my thoughts. Don't know if it's a good or bad thing.

21 minutes ago

quietedheart Samantha

Part of me don't want to grow up so fast; the other part of me can't wait for my wings to harden and take flight.

29 minutes ago

quietedheart Samantha

All these talk about maturity makes me feel dumb. I want to be treated like an adult but I don't behave like one. In fact, I act like a kid.

30 minutes ago

quietedheart Samantha

Can't sleep. Thoughts running through my head. This is what a shower does to me.

31 minutes ago

[ read tweets from bottom to up ]
[ then read below ]

I guess I don't mind this format. Thank you twitter.

So, skype chat stopped. I stopped going online too. The group sort of disbanded leaving only Nic LX Mark and I. Sometimes CL Jeremy Victor. Occasionally hum. At first I though it was because of me, but no, not possible. How could it be? I overrate myself. I was never that influential and never will be. But it did become more obvious when I stopped going for dinner. It was obvious that I was shunning people too. It took me a while to realise that I was doing that. But no one came to ask so I thought it was cool. Oh wait. Who am I again? Why the fuck will they ask. I never planned anymore activities for quite some time now. And to think that I was all hyped up about our class going out together. It probably was all a farce. But there seemed to be no point to continue organising events. All along it has been Nic and I. Jeremy did help too, sometimes. I'm tired. Never thought that it'll be so fast. But, if you're not putting in effort then why should I? You haven't made me feel that what I've done is worth all the trouble. Okay, maybe because it's only been a year that we're together but friendship shouldn't just dissipate like that, no? Though it feels like we aren't close anymore but I still feel compelled to hold on. I still feel the pull like 5 years ago, between Rachel and I. If we do make it through, then this friendship should be worth the keep. At most I'll just waste all my emotions on it, no loss I guess.

2011-07-18T11:23:00.002+08:00

20. My fears.

2011-07-11T12:51:00.000+08:00

20. My fears.

Losing people close to me.
Injections
Failure

19. 5 items I lust after.

2011-07-10T11:26:00.001+08:00

19. 5 items I lust after.

Film cameras
LEICA
Ace Attorney merchandise

18. A problem that I have had.

2011-07-09T16:41:00.000+08:00

18. A problem that I have had.

There is one that is constantly bugging me: my brain capacity. Before you think that I'm boasting about how smart I am, it's my brain capacity for overthinking. I tend to think too much about every single little thing, big or small, existent or not. Can't you stop thinking then, you ask. Apparently not. Thinking has sort of become a part of my life, a daily routine that sometimes if I have nothing to think about, I'll feel very out of place. I'll find a very small matter, make a mountain out of a molehill and mindscrew myself. More than often, this thinking will lead me in circles until I finally deicide to put a stop to it, usually with me having to convince myself that it's just me overthinking again. You think that's easy; it's not. I suck at convincing people, much less convince myself. I just end up going in another circle again.

Another problem: procrastination.

17. Something that I'm proud of.

2011-07-08T16:38:00.000+08:00

17. Something that I'm proud of.

I... don't know. Probably nothing anyway.

16. Something I always think "what if..." about.

2011-07-07T16:36:00.000+08:00

16. Something I always think "what if..." about.

What if I just disappear from the face of this Earth?
~~I bet a lot of people would be happy.~~

2011-07-07T15:46:00.002+08:00

Passionate

You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.
You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.

Loose

You feel that a clean, orderly desk is the sign of a person who doesn't have enough to do. Schedules and "to do" lists feel stifling; you thrive on a sense that anything goes, and know that the world won't end if you don't clean up after finishing a job.
You don't need to know that everything is in its place; it is not empowering to you to feel that the world around you is neat and organized. Mowing down every item on your "to do" list, every day, does not bring you joy.

Curious

You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.
You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.

Self-Contained

You like to stick to your own business and leave the power struggles to others; you know who you are and what you believe in, but you don't see any reason to impose your values on everyone else.
You generally don't get involved in organizing or motivating people, and you don't feel the need to always be seen as a big public decision-maker.

Upbeat

You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.
You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.

Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.
You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Arbitrary

You believe life can be fairly random, and trying to impose a tight little grid on it is a waste of time - your conclusion: relax. Things will work out (or not). No need to get ultra-logical about everything.
You do not believe that everything has a logical explanation or that every problem has a logical solution.

Original

You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.
You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.

Reserved

You are somewhat shy, or at least unwilling to spend all your time socializing. With you it's true that "still waters run deep," which is why many of your acquaintances never get to know you well.
You are not always ready to talk at the drop of a hat. Whether you're in the office or at a party, you're not likely to be found gabbing away in the middle of a group of people.

Acquiescent

You are comfortable in your own skin and don't need to throw your weight around. You'll often choose to be the one who is told what to do rather than the one who's doing the telling, and you sometimes avoid confrontations even if it means that you won't get your way.
You aren't interested in making others bend to your will or in always dishing out criticism. You're not a pushy person, and you like it that way.

Yes. http://psychcentral.com/personality-patterns/

15. My zodiac/horoscope and if I think it fits my personality.

2011-07-06T16:32:00.000+08:00

15. My zodiac/horoscope and if I think it fits my personality.

Zodiac: Rooster
Horoscope: Pisces

I don't really think my personality is that true of a rooster. More of a pig actually.
But my horoscope, it fits me to a t. Probably because I believe in it.

14. What I wore today.

2011-07-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

14. What I wore today.

Childhood.

2011-07-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

I started surfing the web I was 6/7 lol my mum sent me to some computer class at TPY library and I was the only kid there. I forgot what game though I first played though. Neopets? I got my first mp3 when I was 11? It was a Ranger. I got my iPod when I was 13. My first phone was at 10, and it was a fucking heavy Nokia. Second phone was Nokia 8250 then Nokia 3100 but my mum took it away because I never used it. Then at 13 I was given a pink Motorolla V3, it sucked then SE k750i > SE k810 > Samsung F480 but it got stolen > SE w995 then it died just after the warranty. Currently using SE w810i till I get my iPhone. I never owned any consoles.

Tumblr: The 13th GIF in your folder is your reaction to your best friend saying they're pregnant

2011-07-04T17:56:00.003+08:00

13. My opinion about my body and how comfortable I am with it.

2011-07-04T15:36:00.000+08:00

13. My opinion about my body and how comfortable I am with it.

I guess I'm fine with it.

12. Five guys whom I find attracting.

2011-07-03T14:19:00.002+08:00

12. Five guys whom I find attracting.

1. JJ Lin

2. Miles Edgeworth

3. Uh. Alien Huang

Photos from his facebook page.

4. Um. Jing Wong

His facebook page no nice photos. Google also got not much ):

11. My family.

2011-07-02T14:17:00.002+08:00

11. My family.

♥, ♥

10. Put music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play.

2011-07-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

10. Put music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play.

不想懂得－張韶涵
自然醒－林宥嘉
我會好好過－李玖哲
Miss You - GreeeeN
玩酷－潘緯柏
城市－蘇打綠
溫柔－五月天
誠實的傷害－康康
不過是想－謝和弦
Girlfriend - K

9. How important I think education is.

2011-06-29T10:48:00.001+08:00

9. How important I think education is.

Not as important as a person's character/personality/attitude. That is what defines a person, not how knowledgeable and stuck-up you are.

8. What I ate today.

2011-06-28T21:31:00.001+08:00

8. What I ate today.

I had sardine sandwich which my grandpa made for me for breakfast, hokkien mee from canteen 3 for lunch, bee hoon for dinner.

Tumblr: The 7th GIF in your folder is the person that will play you in the movie about your life.

2011-06-28T13:06:00.000+08:00

Tumblr: The 17th GIF in your folder is now your significant other.

2011-06-28T12:29:00.005+08:00

7. Five pet peeves.

2011-06-26T13:38:00.002+08:00

7. Five pet peeves.

Feeling left out.
Really, really bad English. Though I'm not that good at English, it irks me to see English sentences way beyond comprehension.
Feels like crying but no tears flow out.
People who always - no matter right or wrong - must have the last say.
Using vulgarities. Well, I understand that sometimes you need to vent your anger but you don't have to go 'fuck you bitch' every freaking minute (especially when you're not frustrated).

Not sure if they're all considered pet peeves. I tried my best, based on the definition I found on dictionary.com.

6. My view on mainstream music.

2011-06-25T13:19:00.001+08:00

6. My view on mainstream music.

I don't listen much to mainstream English songs so I don't really have comments.
Mainstream Chinese songs; too many new singers who 'die' before being known.
K-pop is a different story. (Note: I'm not a hardcore K-pop supporter.)

5. Things I want to say to an ex.

2011-06-24T13:17:00.001+08:00

5. Things I want to say to an ex.

Nothing. I was never attached.

4. Bullet my whole day.

2011-06-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

4. Bullet my whole day.

Got woken up to go for breakfast but I asked my grandma (paternal) to dapao for me went back to bed.
Woke up at 9, washed up and had breakfast.
Changed and packed my bag for the day.
Work. New PT today. And Jeremy was on shift today. I kind miss seeing him, He's one of the friendlier PT whom I'm comfortable talking with.
Got off work and changed for dinner.
Went to Joaquim at Suntec for dinner with my mum, sis, grandpa (maternal), and my mum's friend.
Homed.
Slacked.
Talked a bit about the trip this July with my aunt.
Shower.
Facebook/twitter.
Here.

3. A book I love.

2011-06-22T13:49:00.001+08:00

3. A book I love.

I don't reach much. Does manga count? If yes then probably Slam Dunk It's the very first series I ever completed (2007).

2. Something I feel strongly about.

2011-06-21T13:47:00.001+08:00

2. Something I feel strongly about.

I over-think a lot. About life.
I guess that pretty much sums it all.

1. Five ways to win my heart.

2011-06-20T13:39:00.003+08:00

1. Five ways to win my heart.

Be mature; yet childish. Or at least act your age when you need to.
Sensitivity; because I am a very sensitive person. Over-sensitive you might say.
Security; I will hound you if I don't feel secure enough. Ok not to that extend but you know what I mean. Oh wait, maybe you don't.
Observant. I think it pretty much explains itself
Sincerity. Need I say more.

Bonus:
Mutual feelings.

30 days

2011-06-20T01:39:00.000+08:00

-trying to revive dying blog-
Nope, not gonna be consistent heeheehee. Well, unless I schedule the posts.

Why when I want to cry no tears surface, but when I cannot cry the tears start flowing?

2011-05-28T01:42:00.001+08:00

Why are all the people I want to talk to are not online.
Time to pour my heart out.

Haven't been in the best of moods for the past month. I don't know if it's the stress from work or over-thinking but I seem to be able to mask my feelings rather well; or maybe it's just an illusion. When have you not seen my emotions painted on my face. I feel all these pent up feelings but no way to let it out. I need a catalyst.

Sometimes (like now), I don't know what the hell am I fussing about. There is nothing in particular that I am depressed about (or at least I don't think so). It just feels like my subconscious is making a mountain out of a molehill.

Tried talking to Pang last night but he was out so we didn't call. When he said I could text him I teared. Was thinking about me thinking too much all the time and thought of talking to someone. Wanted to talk to Jeremy but it kinda doesn't feel right if we weren't in a mrt, talking face to face. Second choice was Pang (you see why I felt how I felt just now) but the thing is I seldom talk to him now, partially because we are in different classes now. I felt kind of bad because whenever I do talk to him it's when I'm feeling down. Well, he is my happy pill for a reason. He seems to be the only one who can make me laugh almost immediately just talking about random crap.
We texted, I finished my story, but I didn't want the conversation to die. I tried continuing the convo but I guess he was busy; replies were slow. Then I wanted to skype LX or something but apparently she wasn't online. Pang replied me, and I thought. It feels like I am using him. I felt selfish. But someone once told me: friends are there for you to make use of, likewise in return, they will make use of you. I agreed then, but somehow it just didn't feel right this time. It felt like, I was using him (and/or Jeremy) to be my target of frustrations all the time. I never seem to be there when they need help. But when they do need help, I don't know how to reach out to them.

I don't know what to feel anymore.
Sometimes I just wish I was a block of wood, devoid of all these human feelings. They're all so confusing.

Thank you guys for being there for me. Sorry for being a burden.

Whatever it is, I don't like how this is going.

Today.

2011-05-24T21:28:00.005+08:00

Too long to tweet and it's been a long time since I last blog so here's some boring non-fiction for you to ~~read~~ kill time.

So today I went to school an hour later than usual. Went straight to class and ate my grandma's homemade bazhang for breakfast. Picked out the gao-lat and gave Clement cause I don't eat hahaha. Ate halfway wanted to go over next door to kachiao Mel and XH but then Chet came. So I was like 'Hi Chet I have something to ask you later' then I went back to the mac lab. Finished my bazhang, social-networked for a while then I started to do Maya. Managed to shape out all the bigger details (ie door, bonnet, boot, etc). Lunch: home-cooked fried beehoon. Then went back to Dot for Chet's lesson. Crapped through Hero's Journey group work assignment; we were second to present. (Cramps start). After all the presentations Chet let us off for a break. (Cramps getting worse). Went off to get a cup of milo; which I gave to CL in the end. Came back then felt worse. Went around asking for panadol then Jim said we could go try to ask 8th floor. But apparently they couldn't anyhow give medication to students because they were scared of implications blah blah blah. But it's just panadol! Plus I'm not allergic to any drug or anything. Whatever, so I dragged myself back downstairs with my bodyguards (Nic and LX) who went up with me lol. Felt really miserable so asked to go home. Chet let me off since the more important part of the lesson was over. Kinda sad cause I didn't have a chance to hear other people's stories ): Cabbed home cause I didn't think I could tahan the bus ride ($16+ T_T) and the cab was leaving NP also. (~4pm)
Reached home around 4.35pm, took panadol and went to sleep. Woke up about an hour later feeling very stuffy. Called aunt and she asked me to go see a doctor. Vomited out my lunch on the way to the GP (polyclinic was closed ): ) I felt better after that though. It's the second time this happened already. Consultation fee was $23. The GPs are out to suck people's money. Asked for an MC for tomorrow. Got home, took medication (for vomiting) and went to sleep. Woke up, had porridge and took medication (for cramps). Showered and started blogging till now.

Ok, it's the end of my uneventful day already. Sorry Jeremy, I know you were looking forward to see me wear the cardigan you helped shopped for tomorrow but I'm on MC, hee. I wear next week ok?
Goodbye.

This is from yesterday.

Clarke Quay - Singapore River

2011-04-05T19:34:00.004+08:00

Went to nex to find a job today and got one at Popular. After that I went down to Clarke Quay to buy some materials. On the way back I bought a drink then because you cannot eat or drink in the MRT I decided to sit by Singapore River since I had time to kill. I sat there, staring at the river, looking as the boats go by. After awhile, I understood why Jeremy likes to go there. At first I thought it was only because it was quiet, but no - it's so peaceful that it takes you mind off things; so peaceful I could just fall asleep. I didn't want to leave (but I had to cause the sky was threatening to pour on me). I sat there for about half an hour?

've been thinking about getting a tattoo for so so long. Since the start of Y1.

Singapore River; outside Central

1M04♥

2011-04-03T03:02:00.001+08:00

I'm no good with words; just know that I love you.

2011-04-03T03:00:00.000+08:00

Recently 've been hooked on Ace Attorney (MILES EDGEWORTH ♥) and... Yaoi.
Thought about what was it that kept me wanting to read more. It's interesting. I guess it's cause we don't get to see the affectionate side of guys so easily.
---
Will Powers: Every time you do your lawyer thing, the witness suddenly turns into the bad guy...
Phoenix Wright: ("Every time"...?)
Edgeworth: ...Witness. I will personally talk to the defense at a later time. So for now, please kindly cooperate and continue with your testimony.
Will Powers: S-Sorry...
Judge: So, you went to the defendant's soon. And then?
Phoenix Wright: (Hey, wait a minute! When and how did I suddenly turn into the bad guy here??)

White Day

2011-03-14T15:04:00.000+08:00

Idk if I can blog properly in this state lol, feeling so sleepy (lika G6)
It's gonna be a boring post. It's been a long while since I updated my blog.

Anyway, I thought I would wake up at 8+ this morning, but apparently I didn't. Woke up at 10 then went to temple with grandma. She's having an operation tomorrow. Walked around Bugis a bit cause she want to buy dried goods. After that we went to eat tauhuayyyy at Selegie there. Bus back, it was raining on the way (and I think it still is right now).
I wanted to alter my skirt but couldn't find the shop at the market. My grandma said it's at central there but got lazy to walk + super sleepy so went home.

I guess you're wondering why I'm so tired. No, I didn't sleep late last night, went to bed at 2340.
I was ~~working~~ helping out at a gym competition at Bishan sports hall over the weekend. I won't say that it was fun but it wasn't all that boring. Ok, maybe a little, because the work was mundane. All you had to do was show the score to the audience and pass the score sheet from the judges to the admin. Some unlucky people had to help calculate scores. It's not really tiring, just very shag.
After day 2 we had dinner at KFC and Isaac was the only one who didn't change out (we had some uniform to wear). While eating, the DJ at the competition approached us (probably saw Isaac wearing the tee) and offered us a job. He said he needed people who could wake up early (we had to meet at 0630 for the gym competition). So now I'm supposed to email the guy (he gave us his name card) and ask for details...

Today's white day.
And happy birthday Mr Ma lol.

2011-03-02T09:00:00.004+08:00

Part 1:
I dreamt that we were celebrating the director's birthday or something then I was supposed to decorate the cake for her but I got distracted or something then they couldn't wait alr so they stuck 2 fat candles in the cake. Then some others were playing 老鹰抓小鸡 and I joined then. The first person caught Mark then Mark caught me then I catch back him then he caught Melissa though he could've caught me. Melissa was aiming to catch Mark again then I was supposed to protect him because he didn't catch me? So I carried him and ran around the large pillar in the middle of the room to dodge Melissa. After 1 round I saw Mark walk past me and he took a tripod from behind me. Apparantly all along I was carrying the tripod. So I kicked him and he stumbled forward. He sat down and showed us his ankle which was injured very badly (new injury). He said he didn't know how he got it but it doesn't hurt.

Part 2:
I dreamt that CY walked me home and I was resting my head on his shoulder.

It is said that the people you dream of wants to see you in real life.
I'm meeting them later anw, except the director.

One month

2011-01-25T21:35:00.001+08:00

Harro. First post in 2011 :D
Today is exactly one month before my birthday.

Rachel asked me what I wanted. First thought that came to mind was naturally JJ Lin hahaha but that's impossible la. To be honest I'm really trying not to expect too much this year. We are all busy with our lives and that you remembering is actually good news to me already.

I was actually thinking about what I really want for my birthday on the way home today. I thought really hard and I realised what I really want cannot be bought and is more valuable than all the gold and diamonds add together. This precious thing, held close to the heart, is you. You know who you are. For my birthday, if I could, I really wanna give you guys a hug like Nicole did. I want you to know how much you mean to me. But I'm guessing some of you won't want to if given a choice. I shan't force you. And I'm guessing probably only Jeremy, Nic and Shu can understand what I'm trying to say here. It's almost in code. Ok, probably only Nic.

2010

2010-12-31T20:25:00.001+08:00

I got motivated (not, lol) by CY's blog post to post today cause it's the last day of the year. (Since when did I care? lol) I noticed I've lost all the festive mood for this year.

Done mapping for my car model but it needs a lot more improvements. Geh, I totally should be drawing my sketchbook assignments now =-=

Anyway (using CY's post for ideas lol), 2010:

It was fun!
It went by (speed-wise) relatively ok.
I met the 20 most-awesomest people (1M04♥) and other awesome people too hahaha
I did become more cheerful too, as I opened up more, and made new friends and some of them became so close ♥ I'm really grateful for you guys.
I've learnt a lot, really. Thanks guys, and girls.
I WANNA RELIVE THE DAYS IN WUHAN.
Actually I wouldn't mind relieving this whole academic year if it is guaranteed to be as fun (meaning minus the assignments) \o/
I lost weight hahaha \o/
I can't think of anymore alr leh lol

To be honest, I'm not really looking forward to 2011 leh, because it means it's only 1 more term to be with 1M04 as a class. I really hope our friendship, the bond we forged, can last till forever. I love you guys ♥
Also, not forgetting Rachel. You've taught me a lot too. I'm really happy that we've lasted till now though there were misunderstandings beginning of the year due to me thinking too much (zz), but yea ♥ Thanks for being there

I spent 4 hours on this post lol.

2010-12-26T06:18:00.002+08:00

Woots, awake since last night, and not sleeping anytime soon.

Was doing my sketchbook (finished the in-class exercises alr), then I started sketching a random girl and posted it to twitter. Went on to read Nadim's blog cause I just found it and thought Nic would've updated hers too, but I found a lot of half-written posts lol.

One week of the holidays' gone, left one week to chiong homework. Thank god I don't have DAV or I doubt I'll be able to finish my homework, especially when I lost my sketchbook =-= PDW's A3 assignment 90% done, sketchbook probably 80%? 3DD, hah.
I really admire Jeremy's noobcrastination skill. If 我有他一半的能力就好咯.

Anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS (:

2010.12.25

2010.12.26

To be honest I'm only blogging for the sake of blogging lol.

2010-12-08T17:55:00.002+08:00

歌名：她說
歌手：林俊傑
詞：孫燕姿曲：林俊傑

他靜悄悄地來過
他慢慢帶走沈默
只是最後的承諾
還是沒有帶走了寂寞
我們愛的沒有錯
只是美麗的獨秀太折磨
她說無所謂
只要能在夜裡翻來覆去的時候有寄託

等不到天黑煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂
我怕一天一天被摧毀

等不到天黑不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明我想只是害怕清醒
不怕天明我想只是害怕清醒

2010-12-02T09:08:00.000+08:00

Timing on image not accurate lol

2010-11-28T15:47:00.001+08:00

Hoho, happy reading.

2010-11-11T23:34:00.001+08:00

: Gah. My mind like flooded leh
: u should try to drain it somehow. seriously. u cant survive long like this =w=
: Trying.
: haha. alright. then. dont think too much okay? tho i noe hw its almost impossible OTL.
: The worse thing is that the drain got clogged JUST after I cleared it

I can't help it.
I need to rename my playlist to 'You'.

Shopping for December babies

2010-11-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today was epic, 那两个傻瓜竟然上当.
After school had Nic went to Woodlands and Victor and I decided to take the mrt with her. Got Victor to go shopping (AMK hub) with me haha. Actually wanted to get something for my aunt but didn't know what to get so decided to shop for Pang's and Mark's birthday presents. A bit too early though. Wanted to get a top and a bottom for each person. Top easy to get size, bottom a bit difficult. So Victor called them and pretended to be getting bottoms for himself. He was like, 'I'm getting bottoms for myself and I think that we are about the same size, so what's your size ah?' AND BOTH OF THEM FELL FOR IT. Mark best. Victor also asked them where they buy their clothes, Pang said Far East, Mark said Giordano. After hanging up the call, Mark sms-ed Victor saying that if he getting clothes from Giordano, he (Mark) got member, give his handphone number can already LOL. I was laughing away during both phone calls la! All the way until the sms lor! Damn funny.
In the end only got a pair of skinnies for Pang today.

Anw, today also 很高兴知道 buddy 没有忘记我 (: and Victor wants to bring me go drink when I turn legal /:

2010-11-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

Ok, so I'm here to blog about Tuesday. Or at least that's what I said.
What the heck shall just blog what I remember :D

Disclaimer: May not be in chronological order lol

So, Tuesday (2010.11.02), before I forget. The first official S&W and IJ lessons. I took the shuttle bus and had a tummy ache halfway on the bus ride. What great timing -___- Rushed to the toilet once I alighted with my bag and rackets. Sms-ed XH in the almost reception-less toilet that I'm not gonna be out soon. When I was going out of the toilet I met XH at the entrance. Kinda expected that cause Mark didn't have a racket and he had to borrow my father's lol. So we went to the sports hall. Saw a lot of people sitting at their respective sport but we didn't see badminton. Later we found out that they were in the sports hall already AND WE WERE LATE A FEW MINUTES. Oh wait, that shouldn't be the emphasis. The teacher took attendance already AND WE WERE CONSIDERED LATE. Mark was like can we go for breakfast now lol. Anw (lucky) we participated (actively) and got our attendance taken at the end of class. So what did we do? I tell you this is damn dumb.

Throw and catch the shuttle.
Throw and catch the shuttle with one hand
Shuttle drop, 5 push-ups
Throw and catch the shuttle with one hand and not move from your position
Shuttle drop/move, 10 push-ups
Hit the shuttle with your palm
Hit the shuttle with your palm and not move from your position
Shuttle drop/move, 20 push-ups
Hit the shuttle with the pack of your hand
No penalty
Hold the face of the racket and hit the shuttle
Hold the face of the racket and hit the shuttle back hand
Hold the face of the racket and hit the shuttle fore hand and back hand (alternate)
Hold the face of the racket and spar with a partner
Hold the face of the racket and spar with a partner over the net
(FINALLY) Hold the grip of the racket and spar with partner over the net
Hold the grip of the racket and spar with partner over the net
If caught with racket held over shoulder to hit the shuttle, 20 push-ups

Note: we were 'lifting' the shuttle only.
After S&W we (Mark, XH, CY, Isaac and I took badminton) went to Makan Place. Had a drink and some food...
Then after that is IJ. Isaac was waiting for Lee and cause Jojo was in bball with him so I waited but then Joash didn't appear =-= I was kinda late cause I was waiting for Joash.
SO ANYWAY, we made a roller coaster for this lesson. Our groups were already pre-chosen by the lecturer so we just had to make do with it. I was very proud of our group. Though our roller coaster kinda failed at a part (we made a last minute change to it) we got 18/20! Highest in the class, heh >:D It lasted 8s! Minimum was 5. Pictures and vids will be up on facebook next week. Lee got full marks =-= Ah whatever lol. After class had lunch tgt and LAN LOL. We were playing L4D2 at first but Nic and I sucked so bad at it individually we decided to go Maple for the last hour lol. OH,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIC!

Monday 2010.11.01
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XH! Kinda planned a cake smash for Nic but it didn't really work out hahaha. Anw had 2 cakes and CL showed us 'how to cut a cake on a book' lol.

Friday 2010.10.29
Kinda celebrated halloween with costumes hahaha. Borrowed surgical gown and rubber gloves and fake blood and butter knife from Nic. Shan't say much, see it for yourself.

2010-09-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

kop-ed from ChangLin

A
Available: Yes
Age: 17
Annoyance:
Allergic:
Animal: Pig
Actor:

B
Beer: Used in cooking, (Y)
Birthday/Birthplace: 25th February 1993 KK Hospital
Best Friends: You
Body Part on opposite sex:
Blind or Deaf: Neither
Best weather: 20+ deg, cloudy
Been in Love: Never
Been bitched out?: Idk
Been on stage?: Yea
Believe in yourself?: Maybe
Believe in life on other planets: Idc
Believe in miracles: Sometimes
Believe in Magic: They're just illusions
Believe in God: Yes, with a small 'g'
Believe in Satan: Probably.
Believe in Santa: No
Believe in Ghosts/spirits: Not really
Believe in Evolution: Not really

C
Car: Motorbike
Candy: Chocolate, dark chocolate.
Color: White, gray, black.
Cried in school: Yes.
Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate
Chinese/Mexican: Chinese
Cake or pie: Both
Countries to visit: Japan, Taiwan, Hong Kong

D
Day or Night: Night
Dream vehicle: Motorbike?
Danced: YMCA (for variety show 2010)
Dance in the rain?: No
Dance in the middle of the street?: No
Do the splits?: Can’t

E
Eggs: scrambled, half-boiled, sunny-side up, fried with onions
Eyes: Brown
Everyone is:
Ever failed a class?: Literature, Social Studies

F
First crush: K2 (joke)
Full name: Samantha Loh Tze Sin
First thoughts waking up: Either recapping a dream or sleep.
Food: Jap ♥

G
Greatest Fear: Loneliness
Giver or taker: More of a giver
Goals: Go to heaven. I just want to be a good person and I want someone to be good to me.
Gum: A little swollen due to irregular brushing
Get along with your parents?: Okay
Good luck charms: Don't really believe in them. Everything's predestined.

H
Hair Colour: Coffee brown
Height: 160cm
Happy: Emo
Holidays: At Wuhan now, about 3 more weeks to go.
How do you want to die: Peacefully
Health freak?: No

I (In guys/girls)
Eye colour:
Hair Colour:
Height: Taller
Clothing Style:
Characteristics: Responsible, childish but mature, joker but serious
Ice Cream: Chocolate chip/cookies and cream
Instrument: Recorder, Piano (only right hand), Classical guitar (1st guitar only)

J
Jewelry: Seldom wear
Job: Student

K
Kids: Idk
Kickboxing or karate: Karaoke
Keep a journal?: Need to for this immersion trip but I haven't written anything yet. Already 2 weeks into the trip.

L
Longest Car Ride: Don't remember
Love: ♥
Letter: J
Laughed so hard you cried: Yes
Love at first sight: No.

M
Milk flavour: Low fat
Movie: Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, Toy Story 3, Michael Jackson: This Is It, 艋舺
Mooned anyone?: ?
Marriage: When the right guy comes.
Motion sickness?: No.
McD’s or BK: Home-cooked food

N
Number of Siblings: 1
Number of Piercings: 1 on each ear lobe
Number: 27

O
Overused Phrases: LOL
One wish:Prince Charming
One phobia: Algiophobia, Ponophobia, Odynophobia or Odynephobia. (http://phobialist.com)

P
Place you’d like to live: Singapore
Pepsi/Coke: Sprite

Q
Quail: Don't like the eggs.
Questionnaires: Fun to do when bored.

R
Reason to cry: Emo
Reality T.V.: Idk
Radio Station: Y.E.S. 93.3
Roll your tongue in a circle?:u-shape

S
Song: JJ Lin
Shoe size: 7
Sushi: Sashimi
Skipped school: No
Slept outside: Yes
Seen a dead body?:On tv
Smoked?: 2nd hand
Skinny dipped?: No
Shower daily?: Duh
Sing well?: My voice goes damn low at night.
In the shower?: Sometimes
Swear?: When I'm bloody pissed.
Stuffed Animals?: IT'S SO FLUFFAYE.
Single/Group dates: Single
Strawberries/Blueberries: Cherries
Scientists need to invent:

T
Time for bed: 2am
Thunderstorms: Scary.
Touch your tongue to your nose?: No

U
Unpredictable: Life
Under the influence?: Friends
Understanding?: I try my best.

V
Vegetable you hate: Green ones
Vegetable you love: White ones except cauliflower
Vacation spot: Wanna go back Singapore first (now).

W
Weakness: I think too much
When you grow up:
Which one of your friends acts the most like you: None
Who makes you laugh the most: Friends
Worst feeling: Loneliness
Wanted to be a model?: No
Where do we go when we die: heaven?
Worst weather: Scorching sun and no rain for days/frozen grounds.
Walk with a book on your head?: Tried

X
X-Rays: Back, ankle and teeth

Y
Year it is now: 2010
Yellow: colour

Z
Zoo animal:
Zodiac sign: Pisces

Wuhan x2

2010-09-22T02:42:00.000+08:00

I've totally lost the mood for blogging alr cause I'm damn shag now.
So here I am in Wuhan, China for the second time and for immersion again. This time, for 35 days. I really hope I won't waste my time here. Kinda missing people in Singapore as I'm typing this.

It's day 12 today, mid-autumn festival. Sudden drop in temperature and my super-short-fake-adidas-hoodie-from-korea-when-i-was-in-primary-school is barely protecting me from the cold. Air-con's off, window and door closed. My room is directly opposite the kitchen/launfry room and that window is open. So if we open the door, WOOSH.

We're getting along fine, I have my crazy times but usually when we retire back to our dorms after dinner my emo-mode like auto-on. Don't ask me why cause I don't know. Why not you tell me. But it's still ok. It only gets kinda scary when LingXuan got angry, cause she ignores people. But good thing that she recovers quickly. If me I think I'll only be fine after a day or something, not counting trivial matters. Oh and I thank god (I mean like really, no offence though) that I'm not in the same room as Melissa, or I'll go berserk. Feeling goddamned anti-social now, like some piece of emo-shitz. Gah.

The plane ride was awesome. Transfer flight delayed 6-8 hours?! And didn't announce until some one complained sommore. Pro.

(written: 2010.09.13)
After school we went to some photography city but there was nothing nice ): THEN WE WENT FOR SOME REAL SHOPPINGZ. I think it was damn cool that our class has been sticking together since day 1 (when at the airport). I mean even when we were left on our own to go shopping (Sunday), we still stuck together <33 We walked quite a long way and took the public bus. It was… a rather good experience. We had to cross the roads the Chinese way :D like, just cross and don't care about the cars (courting death). The bus ride was bouncy. Cuz the road was uneven and the bus was bouncy. Going there was ok but when coming back, cuz we met with the peak hour, we had to squeeze up the bus. We made it back alive though

(written: 2010.09.15)
In the afternoon we went to an animation firm in Wuhan for a field trip. It was interesting to know that they could produce such videos comparable to the Americans/Japanese. Not that I am prejudiced against them or anything but I never thought that their animation could be so realistic. This means I need to work doubly as hard as I planned to. Their office seems rather small; or maybe it’s just cause we only explored one small area.

(written: 2010.09.17)
Today we went to a museum! And it happen to be the same as the one i went to 3 years ago with my secondary school (also for immersion). We didn’t know that we could’ve left our water at the security while we toured inside so we donated our water to the plants =-= Haha, I’m not really into artifacts but Nicole pointed out something i couldn’t help but agree – the archeologists are so patient, piecing artifacts together to present us the original form of the item. The performance was cool, loved the ending piece but my camera just had to run out of memory near the ending. =-=

&last but not least last night (2010.09.21).
It was cool. Got really high. Especially liked the epic stop-motion disco, though it probably killed a lot of my brain cells. (MARK LEE WAS EPIC BEYOND EPIC). Learnt a bit about mid-autumn festival, needed for my IS. Other than eating mooncake, getting fat, playing with lanterns, it is also a day for reunion. Our performance; it felt uber short but I heard that it took 10 minutes. We did an acoustics performance. We sang Where I belong, Lemon Tree and had some people perform Gee. I especially liked Jessica singing Gee with the guitar. Was searching youtube just now but couldn't find one as good as her, except one. But LingXuan said that the person is a singer. Oh and no offence, but I felt that the fms' performances were really messy. Not that ours was very neat but I think we did better? Anyway, whatever.

I just realised that most of the time, I blog very emo-ly.

2010-09-07T14:18:00.002+08:00

2010-09-02T14:50:00.002+08:00

2010-08-19T02:22:00.001+08:00

我是谁我是谁我是谁 - 魔幻力量
作詞：廷廷 (Magic Power)
作曲：廷廷 (Magic Power)
編曲：Jae Chong

我是誰你是否常常這樣問自己
我是誰總是活在別人的期望裡
我是誰是誰又擅自幫你定義了
你是誰只有不是自己才安全

為什麼你以為這個世界很美麗
為什麼你愛這個世界勝過愛自己
為什麼這個世界不給你平等待遇
為什麼到底做錯了什麼

朋友都說你太太太奇怪
在背後把你當成笑笑笑話看
每一個動作都被瞎猜
他們說你是個不能容忍的存在

你想要的很很很簡單
不過就是最普通的的的平凡
誠實做自己有時候很難
但是請你勇敢的試一次看看

無論他們又說什麼閒言閒語無法傷害我
世界上只有一個我沒人能代替的我
無論他們又做什麼小動作無法打敗我
我知道自己是最美麗的
The most beautiful

會不會上帝把你的靈魂放錯了身體
會不會是故意整你不是不小心
會不會你常常都覺得力不從心
會不會堅持要做自己太危險

憑什麼難道比較特別就是不對
憑什麼先下了註解在認識之前
憑什麼只不過想認真的活一遍
憑什麼隨便就把人定罪

我是誰這個問題困擾你多少天多少夜
我是誰誰有資格決定你怎樣才是對
我是誰我是誰我是誰
我就是我你就是你
認真做自己的人最美麗

FIRST REAL CLASS GATHERING

2010-08-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

FIRST REAL CLASS GATHERING (though we were missing 3 people)

IT WAS AWESOMEZZZZZ. We should do it again someday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA!

~~-to be edited-~~
-edited [2010.08.25]-

HAHA, I GOT LAZY.
&pictures speak a thousand words.
You can view the thesis here & here. For a more specific area of study, you can view it here.

2010-08-10T19:00:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhhhhh, I've been leaving my my blog to rot since I-forgot-when.
(Ah shit. I forgot what I wanted to blog about. Mainly random stuff though.)

So I've been really busy and tired (plus got no topic to rant about) hence the lack of posts.
Oh, (looking back at what I last posted) Victor that thing over already. I decided not to care, hahaha. If he 有心避开我 there's really nothing I can do. But the situation seems to be getting better cause he's talking to me (sometimes) in his usual tone.
AND I GOT A NEW BOY TO DISTURB. Lol, make me sound like some flirt /:
PRESENTING TO YOU...

MARK!

HEEHEEHEE. Actually come to think of it I never posted Victor's picture here /: Ohwells (:
ANYWAYS, other then this 23-year-old boy (LOL),

I HAVE LINGXUAN TO GOSSIP WITH! :D

We just gossiped last night :D
Ok, this post became some introductory post to my friends, HAHAHA. I really hope these friendship lasts cause I REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS! ♥
I think it's the very first time that I have friendships that don't really stress me out. As in, it's 2-way. I'm finally opening up! :D

There's also the girls(:

Nicole :D

AND WHO COULD FORGET PANG? :D

2010-07-14T10:42:00.000+08:00

真材實料的我
詞：Dr. Moon
曲：林俊傑

用功練功看我大力發功
有料就要牛氣轟轟

好夢美夢大夢或白日夢
過癮就勇敢的追夢

真材實料不怕琢磨我要high出自我
青春放肆機會不多出招別怕太多

過癮不是隨便說說不是隨便做做真材實料勇敢做喔
放手為愛沖沖滿腔熱血怦怦真材實料的我

credits: jj-lin.com

2010-07-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

Feeling all emo now, came here to rant.
It's the same problem all over again, plus a little bit more.

I don't like how you're having fun cause I'm not having as much as you are. Yes, I'm jealous ):
I feel like I'm waiting for something that never existed.
Wait, it never did existed. If it did, it'd probably be a miracle.
I don't think I'm asking much, am I?
I don't like to be kept in the dark. Although the truth may hurt, it's a lot better than not knowing what's happening.
I suck at relationships.

I am thinking too much again, aren't I? I can't help it.
I keep finding fault with myself when things (in relationships) don't go well, but I can't seem to find the root.
Am I being too obvious? I'm not totally sure if I'm done.
-
My maturity level is like hovering in between the teenager and the young adult levels. I'm confused. When with the girls, it's still ok. When with Victor... I really don't know how he sees me exactly. Sometimes I feel like I act too childish to be able to talk about 人生哲理/大道理. Tell me I'm not alone. I like being around you guys, I feel happier, I really do. But after we part to go home, sometimes I wonder how do you see me. Do you like me (as a friend)? If you do, what is it that you see in me? I think the tears that time when I cried after I found out that I failed FCP wasn't cause I failed. It was probably just an excuse for my sub-conscious mind to let it out - bit by bit; teardrop by teardrop. I need someone to be there 24/7 to just understand me, to know what I'm thinking by just looking at my eyes.
Yea, I'm jealous that he told you about it but not me. But I don't deny that you're an optimist who gives rather good advices.
Probably I just need to learn how to be much much more understanding.

dph field trip to botanic gardens + walking and running in the rain

2010-07-02T16:29:00.001+08:00

Me, when I just got home yesterday.

At Makan Place now, doing nothing and I'm having a headache. But who am I to say that I'm tired? Victor's trying to sleep, XinHui, Melissa and Nicole watching something on XH's mac, LingXuan's doing her dph iWeb, XueYao is making noise about going home =-=.

Anyway, yesterday we went to the Botanic Gardens for a field trip/excursion. We were to take pictures on the theme "The Beauty of Nature" and choose the best 8 to do up a report (which LingXuan is doing now). I took 130 pictures but mostly were not really planned. So just now after class I just anyhow bomb and anyhow put.
We took class photos after the trip and just nice take finish then rain. We had to return the cameras at 2 but it was raining heavily so Mr Melvin drove the cameras and those who wanted/needed to go back to NP to NP (duh). The rest of us waited for the rain to stop and went our ways. Melissa, LingXuan, Nicole, Victor and I ended up going to Far East Plaza. When we were walking there, it was a drizzle only, but the rain got heavier and heavier. Then we were like contemplating how to go, to run or not to run. But we ran anyway and we had fun! It was the awesomest, funnest day of my life (so far, I'm sure there are many more to come!). We were kinda soaked and like shivering (me, mostly) at Far East. We randomly walked around and lahdeedah. Left at 4pm, reached home 5+. Uploaded some pictures up on fb, dinner, fell asleep on the sofa for about 1 hour, dragged myself to the bathroom, showered, facebook, twitter, tumblr, dwf. Slept around 3 (自作自受).

I know this is abrupt but that is all. Goodbye.

David Choi

2010-06-25T17:23:00.000+08:00

2010-06-23T11:03:00.003+08:00

This morning I dreamt that I was back in secondary school for 1 week and waiyan was in my class. I saw dionis and was like ugh. The teacher came in and asked us to let down the blinds. Then cause the light wasn't on so the classroom was rather dark. Can't remember what the teacher said but the setting changed into some primary school field trip. In the dream, we all haven't completed our 'badminton training' thats why we were back. But it felt more like a class track&field. Then I was on the bike with the seniors while the rest were on foot. I was leading cause the bike's gear very qing. Then halfway we had a break. After the break, when we were about to continue our field trip, lingxuan got on the pillion seat and jesse lai was sick. Jesse went to the toilet and the settings changed again. Now at 'home' I was changing to go school (poly). I dreamt that I joined some samurai cca and that I had a real samurai sword. I had to wear something inside cause the uniform was a robe. Then damn joke: I wore panties > shorts > panties > jeans. LOL! But when leaving for school, the samurai robe became karate gi =-= then I woke up.

李玖哲

2010-06-21T16:23:00.001+08:00

2010-06-16T13:22:00.001+08:00

I had a dream this morning where I was being ignored by the people around me (a mix of 4D2 and poly friends) and I went to emo in one corner. Then some person made us play tag (tagging me only) and those who tagged me need to tell me something nice about me. And for some weird reason, Kenneth, Estee and one more person were not allowed to tag me. I was tagged by James first and I cried in his arms (wonder if I cried in my sleep). After that I can't remember what happened in the dream but now I want to get thank you cards/notes for people I appreciate around me (in school) (:

First day of my first term break in poly

2010-06-14T15:10:00.000+08:00

Today's the first day of my first term break in poly.

Remember that time when I had It's Not Over Tonight stuck in my head? Yah, it ended and last night my head was playing It Ends Tonight. How appropriate! LOL.

Anyway, yesterday went to find CY, Mark and Ryan to go streetfest to look at very nice and very fail cosplays LOL. I didn't take pictures cause I was lazy and of all the people I saw there, I only recognise Vincent from FF7, Cloud from FF7 (but he looks a little malnutrition-ed :P), Pikachu and Stitch :D Then got some digimon and Mozilla Firefox LOOL. Go CY's blog for some of the pictures. We found Nicole but left soon after that cause we were bored, LOL. I went to Tampines while the guys went City Hall I-don't-know-where. In the end I went for the 4D2 gathering but it wasn't much of a gathering. Was supposed to meet at 6 but I was damn early, so I strolled through T1 once, TM 1.5 times and CS once before meeting them. Plus the first person I saw was late! If not cause I had patience, I would have walked off to have dinner at cs (my beloved beef noodles <3) then go back already. Anyway, ate at most $20 worth of Seoul Garden when I paid $30 hahaha. Then they went for pool. I was uber bored and I had to go home early anyway so I played one failed game and left for home. Reached home, bathed, tweet a bit then went to sleep (12+) already. Woke up at 9+ this morning. Had breakfast at 10 I think then lunch at 12+ LOL. I'm gonna get fat soon ):

Looks like I'm not gonna get much done today. Going to wash my shoes after this, bye.

The last day of school

2010-06-11T20:17:00.000+08:00

At Nicole's place now :D
Today's the last day of school and after lessons we went to Nicole's ulu house, lol.
We came in 4 cabs and ours (Victor, Melissa and me) was the most expensive la! $18 ):

So we played Wii.
Ok not exactly everyone. bigMark didn't do anything.
Victor, XinHui and I were watching The Host, Melissa was watching Kaiji and the rest were spamming Band Hero.
smallMark left first. The the 3 old people, HAHAHA.
Then they played MarioKart for a while and back to Band Hero. I only played the drums and bass once each, & I was so shit la, lol.
Now left Joash, Danial, Ryan, ChenYing, Isaac, XinHui, Melissa, LingXuan and me. &they're playing Sing It.

So that's it la, the rest you've gotta to experience it to feel the fun :D
OH, and I had Pizza Hut for dinner, HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Insomnia

2010-06-10T20:57:00.005+08:00

Hi, I'm back. Miss me? I knew that.
So, this is what I was up to the last few weeks...

NO DATES CAUSE MY MEMORY IS LIMITED.

Let's start with last week. On Sunday, for I-don't-know what reason, for the first time in my life, I started to get insomnia. I was really tired but I couldn't fall asleep. I wonder how I pulled through school, but I did so hahaha. First speculation was stress, but I guess that was it. The next week was common tests (still have insomnia). As usual I hugged the Buddha's leg last minute (臨時抱佛腳) /: and ended up sleeping at 2am everyday (with the help of medication) for this week, except for Tuesday (I slept early but with medication). Thank got I got classmates who ton the night with me online, hahaha. But I was never the last to get off (Y). And if you thought insomnia was bad enough, random songs started to attack my head like some computer virus and get stuck there for at least a few hours. Just to name a few: 黃昏, Insomnia, Airplanes & Terrified. The best is today's one. Today is the last day of tests for us and we all should be in a happy mood and LingXuan was singing some 'Let's go party' korean song. I got Maroon 5's It's Not Over Tonight stuck in my head. WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN SIA. The best thing is, I didn't listen to this song for as long as I can remember, which happens to be veryvery long that I don't know when was that.
SO ANYWAY, tomorrow we're going to Nicole's very ulu house to wiiiiiiiii~

PEEKCHURES THYME:

OH, another thing: Sunday had Swensen's lunch, Monday had Pizza Hut dinner, Tuesday had KFC dinner, today had lasagna for dinner. Very broke now, lol.

2010-05-30T01:26:00.001+08:00

TODAY WAS AWESOMEZZZ. Although there were only 3 of us who went to watch the movie (Shrek 4) :P I brought the ancient camera out but only took 2-3 photos cause the film was like ISO 200.

Met the ~~guys~~ ChenYing at Somerset MRT at around 2pm. Victor was late D:<
Anyway I ate already and the hungry one was ChenYing :P
Brought ChenYing to SMUDGEstore while waiting for Victor's grand arrival, LOLL. After that we went up to queue for the tickets. Then when about to reach us already, Victor called to say that he was here =-= In the end queued for nothing. Went to koufu at B1 and Victor went to book the tickets online, but Cathay and Shaw didn't have good seats so ended up booking at Plaza Sing's GV. After lunch, Victor's programming, we went walking around 陪ing 大哥找 iTouch and PSP. 還是我第一次和男生逛街耶！兩個帥哥 sommore, LOL! Walked down to PS and 陪ed the guys going around manga/anime/figurine shops. I WAS kinda bored. But at least there were some recognisable anime (ie FF7). Went to 新旺 for a drink (me had 芝麻糊) before the movie. Nicole joined us for dinner (after movie) and we took a lot of time deciding where to eat. So we went back to 新旺, LOL. In total spent $10 for the movie and another $10 on food. $20 gone just like that, sigh.
After dinner 陪ed Nicole to go buy her cosplay stuff (?) and I started asking kaypo questions :D Super interesting. We should find more kaypo topics to talk about! :D But I miss that Wednesday. ): Sigh, wonder when will have another long chat with him ):

2010-05-24T19:21:00.000+08:00

At Makan place nowxzc.
Everyone at the table has some sort of entertainment gadget, mainly the Macbook.
Just had dinner with most of the class, some of them rushed off to CCA.
Victor's drawing diligently beside me. ChenYing's probably doing some programming stuff. Mark and Nicole --- I don't know. ChangLin's on her PSP. The other guys left first so it's only us left.
I completed my programming assignment today with the help of ChenYing mostly and Jeremy. (: Tomorrow's IS and there's a test. GG. But we have nothing to study for la, it's something like a spring test. But it's open book! :D Hopefully they allow notebooks for the test but I'm thinking that it'll be a no. ):

Imma bored.
kthxbai.

KOOHKIE MONSTERRRR!

2010-05-22T15:56:00.001+08:00

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth.

You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around.

You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking

How you live your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

2010-05-21T10:13:00.003+08:00

2010-05-21T10:13:00.000+08:00

"Partrick's made in China. Lool"

2010-05-19T12:22:00.000+08:00

Even shorter colour pencil. Sharpen until put in the sharpener left only like half a cm to hold and turn (to sharpen).

Uber short colour pencils.

2010-05-18T18:53:00.001+08:00

Uber short colour pencils.

2010-05-18T14:16:00.001+08:00

Should I create a tumblr for my audio logs? :P
Yah Alex, I was the person asking.
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I'm like, trying to keep my voice natural but I have no idea why my voice sooooooooo low ):

陳珊妮阮經天 - Once MV 完整版

2010-05-18T14:02:00.001+08:00

阮經天趙又廷 Tonight Tonight MV 美妙完整首播版

2010-05-18T13:25:00.001+08:00

Perla Beads Design

2010-05-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

Pokemon!

They stated that this is the full set of characters from FF6.

3D Mario mushroom O:

Yoshiiiii~

More mushrooms!

Mario stuff

Slipper!

2DD makes a very good vacuum cleaner. Why? Cause it sucksss.

2010-05-11T19:24:00.001+08:00

&I thought poly year 1s won't be as busy as this. Especially when I didn't go TP. Not that I'm regretting now, I love my new found friends! (Neither am I saying that TP's no good) but you see people like Huimin can don't go school on Fridays. =-=

I'm supposed to do DWF and 2DD homework now. They're due tomorrow. DWF I not so 擔心. But 2DD... Sian. Whythefck do we have to learn magazine spreadddd? Oh wait, I forgot, FUNDAMENTALS. Damn! But it will be good for me when I start to work la. Sian sian sian sian sian. You know I can practically not listen during lessons and like catch up when there is work to do?! AWESOME RIGHT? :D Out of the 6 modules I'm taking, I only pay attention to 2 (DWF and IS). Sometimes DPH... Seldom-ly 2DD and POP. FCP can throw one side. Our class can like mass MSN during that module and 'pay attention' to what they say. As in catching phrases here and there and sometimes making a joke out of it in the convo. Like MAGIC WANG.

Ok, go find food, finish homework and clean the house. Bye~

2010-05-09T23:30:00.001+08:00

I'm still waiting.

2010-05-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

http://www.asiaone.com/News/Education/Story/A1Story20100506-214618.html

page 4 for the colour meanings.

2010-05-06T00:38:00.000+08:00

OMG my face is ROUNDDDD. Can I draw that for DWF? :DD

It's past midnight and I considered done me unknowingly-overdued DPH homework. I can't figure out how to save the site /:
I'm trying to type without looking at the keyboard now and I think I will stop doing that about... now. I can't type fast ):

So, school has been AMAZING. Note the sarcasm. It's boring shit and I wanna turn back the clock. Ok, actually not really. Everything's been peaceful so far. The storms and high waves should come soonish, like next week.
Presented my ~~drawings~~ sketches today. Yea, I'm an alcoholic. LOL. &that wasn't a bell. It's Scotch Whiskey in a bell-like shape cause the brand is BELL'S. I doubt anyone heard me. I really like SweZinSoe's, MarkYap's and XinHui's ones. Swe Zin Soe's and Mark's one the shading damn nice. XinHui's one very detailed! Like, omg la. If got ranking I'm like don't know how many levels below them.

My posts are like short. Shorter than my shortest skirt. LOL, 甚麼比喻嗎. But at least got picture :D
SMUDGEstore opening soon ^^ but not sure exactly when. Also don't know if have time to go down 'not ):
Eyes are tired. Shall give up finding out how to save that site (like I did, LOL). Goodnight!

PS. Oh, I skipped CCA for the first time today for no reason (: Sorry Nicole.
PSS. A bell reminds me of Abel, LOL! That's what I used to call him behind his back XD

2010-05-03T14:39:00.000+08:00

Is he coming or not? If not we would be wasting our 4 hours here doing things that we rather do at home.

2010-04-30T10:28:00.000+08:00

Drawn by Melissa Toh (found in fb group In Loving Memory Melissa Toh)

2010-04-30T10:23:00.000+08:00

In FCP class now. Trying to type and click as softly as possible. Changlin's soft. &yea I'm bored. Coughing and hungry now. Gonna put on lens later, woke up a bit too late this morning. Was telling Lingxuan about Mr Ma just now, haha.

2010-04-27T07:45:00.000+08:00

Alex: here are the 2 tops. Ignore the blue sticker on the pink top.

Week 2 Day 1

2010-04-26T23:54:00.001+08:00

Stupid Irish, LOL. The first impression today's lecturer gave me was PMS-y. Like, seriously! He had this black face and told students (from the previous lesson I suppose) getting their bags to get lost. During lesson he said that it was in his nature to be sarcastic. Today was super slackish. His 15-minute break lasted for I-don't-know-how-long.

We haven't choreograph any dance moves for variety show 2010 yet. Don't expect me to stay long tomorrow after school. I wanna go home before heading down.

Don't you find it weird that someone ask you a for an answer you know best but don't believe you? Then what for ask right?

A Smile in the Sky

2010-04-23T19:50:00.001+08:00

抓小手指 ♥ (:

I saw a smile in the sky and it brightened up my day (:

I'm tired, but I'm happy. Well, partially is cause of the smile in the sky but mainly is cause I SURVIVED THE FIRST WEEK OF POLY. LOL. Actually is no big deal la. But today's Friday :D

&here comes the bad news: I have to do a powerpoint and present it BY MYSELF next Friday. How cool is that? Z.

I wanna rant on snail mail today. I opened the letter box when I came back but got no letter inside. You don't know how happy I am when I receive mail. Don't care is school, bank or what. It's like: I HAVE MAIL! Everyone has turned to email already. Though I have more than 10 accounts, I don't check them regularly (what a joke).

I forgot what else I had in mind /:

2010-04-22T16:10:00.001+08:00

JJ 林俊杰 / 孙燕姿 / 阿杜 / 蔡健雅～【感动每一刻】MV

Finally saw it! ♥

Anyway, I know I haven't been updating. Lazy, hah.
So, first day of school was well, ok. Whataya expect? School is just, school la.
Now still in school, lol. But I finished my work so I am fweeeeee~
Got a big bag of Art Friend to bring home today. ): How the hell am I gonna handle everything on the bus? But lucky I'm going off at 8 la, going for some Photography CCA briefing.

I needa get a new pair of earpiece. Any recommendations?

LIVING LIFE THE WAY I WANT; StillMovingUnDerGunfirE

30. One thing I'm excited for.

What would you do if you only had 24 hours to live?

29. Five weird things that I like.

28. Somewhere I'd like to move to or visit.

27. A quote I try to live by.

26. Things I like and dislike about myself.

25. Something that I'm currently worrying about.

24. Five words/phrases that make me laugh.

23. Something that I miss.

22. My academics.

21. How I hope my future will be like.

20. My fears.

19. 5 items I lust after.

18. A problem that I have had.

17. Something that I'm proud of.

16. Something I always think "what if..." about.

Passionate

Loose

Curious

Self-Contained

Upbeat

Sympathetic

Arbitrary

Original

Reserved

Acquiescent

15. My zodiac/horoscope and if I think it fits my personality.

14. What I wore today.

Childhood.

Tumblr: The 13th GIF in your folder is your reaction to your best friend saying they're pregnant

13. My opinion about my body and how comfortable I am with it.

12. Five guys whom I find attracting.

11. My family.

10. Put music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play.

9. How important I think education is.

8. What I ate today.

Tumblr: The 7th GIF in your folder is the person that will play you in the movie about your life.

Tumblr: The 17th GIF in your folder is now your significant other.

7. Five pet peeves.

6. My view on mainstream music.

5. Things I want to say to an ex.

4. Bullet my whole day.

3. A book I love.

2. Something I feel strongly about.

1. Five ways to win my heart.

30 days

Why when I want to cry no tears surface, but when I cannot cry the tears start flowing?

Today.

Clarke Quay - Singapore River

1M04♥

White Day

One month

2010

Shopping for December babies

Wuhan x2

FIRST REAL CLASS GATHERING

dph field trip to botanic gardens + walking and running in the rain

David Choi

李玖哲

First day of my first term break in poly

The last day of school

Insomnia

KOOHKIE MONSTERRRR!

Uber short colour pencils.

陳珊妮 阮經天 - Once MV 完整版

阮經天 趙又廷 Tonight Tonight MV 美妙完整首播版

Perla Beads Design

2DD makes a very good vacuum cleaner. Why? Cause it sucksss.

Week 2 Day 1

A Smile in the Sky

陳珊妮阮經天 - Once MV 完整版

阮經天趙又廷 Tonight Tonight MV 美妙完整首播版